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Name: andrew
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Fresno
Birthday: 3/27/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: okay, uhh, cant think. lets see, loveline, music, playing guitar, playing piano, hockey, NCAA football 2005, Jessica Alba and Jennifer Lopez (so hot), swimming, water polo, xbox live, halo2, madden, forza motrsport, crystal (o yes), Pepsi, smoothies, playing in a band (not good yet), popsicles, mexican food, mexican girls, (no better combo) simpsons, south park, american dad, church.......why cant they have a dislikes too? i would hecka fill that box up
wait, and here is a list of bands that deserve to still be alive: 311, aquabats, audioslave, APC, beck, Beastie boys,bloc party, blur, breaking benjamin,brand new, bush, cake, chevelle, coldplay,collective soul, clash, DEFTONES, death cab 4 cutie, depeche mode, faith no more, FENIX TX,FALL OUT BOY, filter, garbage, goldfinger, GREEN DAY, gorillaz, hot hot heat, incUbus, INTERPOL, JACK JOHNSON, jane's, jimmy eat world, killers, korn, KOTTONMOUTH KINGS,less than jake
Expertise: LINKIN PARK,live,metallica,mighty mighty bosstones,modest mouse, MUSE, MxPx, nine inch nails, NIRVANA, NO DOUBT, oasis, offspring, op ivy, orgy, POD, PEARL JAM, PENNYWISE, pepper, POSTAL SERVICE, porno for pyros, primus, puddle of mudd,RADIOHEAD, slightly stoopid, RAGE ASGAINST THE MACHINE, rammstein, RANCID, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, reel big fish, REM, SMASHING PUMPKINS, Social D, soul asylum, soul coughing, SOUNDGARDEN, spacehog, stabbing westward, STONE TEMPLE PILOTS, strokes, SUBLIME, sugar ray, SYSTEM OF A DOWN, TAKING BACK SUNDAY, they might be giants, THREE DAYS GRACE, 3rd eye blind, toadies, TOOL, transplants, WALLFLOWERS, WEEZER, yeah yeah yeahs, ZEBRAHEAD
Occupation: Supervisory
Industry: Art
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Member Since:
9/22/2004
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| Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you
Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of droping out of school
And leave this place
to never come back
So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
nanana (...)
And I'd do anything for you
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know I won't forget you
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| blarhggggggggggggghhfdkhglkdfhgldfhgjldflglosdgodsfogdgojhdoghjdgh. i now know the ultimate frustration. i've been trying so hard, with the same end result every time. should i give up? everyone says yes, even i want to say yes, but there's this lil thing that just won't let me....it looks like this: <3. and don't people say, follow your heart? well what do they say to do when it's being tortured? poor heart. you can't control your feelings people, always remember that. i don't want to give up, i really really really really really really don't want to, but maybe it's for the best. stop being selfish.
"If I Could Turn Back Time" (yes, im quoting a cher song, get over it)
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay
I don't know why I did the things I did I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons they wound sometimes.
I didn't really mean to hurt you I didn't wanna see you go I know I made you cry, but baby
[Chorus:]
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back time
My world was shattered I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart
You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darling then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong
I know that I was blind,
If I could turn back time
If I could turn back time
If I could turn back time
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't want to see you go
I know I made you cry
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
Then baby, maybe, maybe
You'd stay
Reach the stars
If I could reach the stars
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| I used to post in here everyday, that was back in sophomore year, when everyone had a xanga. Now when you click on those links of the people that left you comments back then, 90 percent say "--------'s site has been shut down by it's owner". It's sad, it's like an era past or something. Now it seems Myspace has taken over. Not a big fan of Myspace, on there it's all about getting comments and like a popularity contest, "How many friends do you have??? How many comments does she have? Only 90?!?! What a LOSER!" I just found it pathetic, so I stopped going to my site in April of 2006, signed on once since then. It's like a leash for so many people I know and it makes me sick, they're always checking their sites. I value human interaction, not online messages "hay ur 2 cute, just thought I'd let you know" um, thanks?
On Xanga it's like something for yourself, I'd probably disable comments, but sometimes it's nice to know what your friends are thinking, but nowadays, no one goes on here anymore. I miss Xanga's hay-day [is that how you spell it?] come to think of it, I miss sophomore year, I miss high school. The ironic fact being, during my high school, you could hear me whining "I miss middle school" and during middle school "I miss Red Bank [elementary]". Is life really just getting progressively worse, or am I remembering only the high points and good memories, ignoring the valleys from my past, therefore causing it to seem like a perfect time? For some reason, things always seem better than they were when you reflect on it. While it's actually going on, you don't think it's all that great, but a couple years down the road it magically becomes "the best times of my life". What a paradox!
Well college has started, but to be honest, I really don't like it, I value simplicity, college is full of drama and adulthood and maturity. Everyone talks about sex and drugs it seems. Sometimes I long for the days before I knew anything about those two things, it was simpler time, more innocent. I hate to see people's lives ruined by those things, it's pathetic. Well now that college has started it seems I'm having more regrets than ever. Should I have chosen this school? I like the campus itself a lot, it's what's not there that I don't like...cryptic. Well a lot of cool people still go there, Kyle's in 3 of my classes, which is awesome, I've really started to like the kid a lot. We're goin to Warped Tour next week for sure, I'll miss Bio, which isn't good, but it can't be helped. Mike, Ashley, Adri-Ann, and Kyle are all in my Psych class, that's fun. Mike is a good guy too, just met him not that long ago.
No more job....sucks. It was really hectic and only making minimum, so not too heavy of a loss. I found a job that seems perfect for me, 14 dollars an hour as a receptionist/making copies/etc, but...they just hired the last person. lame. I'm next on the waiting list though, which is a plus.
I'm kind of beating around the bush, there's something really bothering me, and really the only thing I can think about recently. Did I make the right decision? My conscience tells me no, but it just seems like there were so many reasons supporting my decision. So why did I do it? I felt like I had to for some reason, I regretted it before I even did it, if that makes any sense at all. Maybe I'll just have to live with it, and let time heal wounds. Maybe I can go crawling back on hands and knees, begging for forgiveness. What to do? half of me says "you'll get over it" the other half says "what the ---k were you thinking? go back before it's too late!" What to do...........I don't know.
that's good enough for the day. man this sucks. life is confusing. sometimes, i think i'm too dramatic for my own good. I hide it well a lot of the time, but i can't lie, i can be rather sensitive at times and might overreact and w/e, just strong emotions, yknow? you don't? oh well.
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| ahhhhhhhh life is good. man this thing brings back good memories. the only thing I hate about though is it reminds me of how mean I was to Vanessa that one night and caused her to delete her myspace and her Xanga. Dang that's probably my biggest regret. Well what's done is done. I can't believe I've had this thing for almost 3 years, crazy. Good times though sophomore year and summer. Damn I've been reflecting on the past so much lately, and it's insane to think I'm almost about to graduate. Everyone talks about how they can't wait to be 21 to drink and party, and don't get me wrong I'm excited about that too, but I long for my innocent childhood a lot of the time. Everything was just so much simpler back then. I was thinking about this a few nights ago when I hung out with Alan. We were in his dad's office and flipped on the 64 and started racing on Mario Kart, and damn that just made the memories flow. We were talking about how we used to ride scooters everywhere and go riding on bikes and eating popsicles and stuff, everything was easier back then. Everyone wasn't obsessed with the two things it seems everyone in high school is obsessed with, alcohol, sex, and Myspace. Man I hate that site, it's so stupid if you think about it, adding as many friends as you can, sending random people messages "hey ur super sexy, call me". uh, yeah I'd rather sit home all day than take a date from a stranger on myspace. But anyway, I thought of all my childhood things and how I've matured. I read some of my earlier posts, they're mostly really embarrassing, but I'm sure this will seem embarrassing years from now. It's funny how that works out. I wonder if authors with tons of books like Stephen King look back at their earlier works and can't even read it, because it's so bad. I digress, I long for the innocence of childhood, I took a trip to Red Bank last week, and omg, nostalgic so bad, it was trippy. I swear I can write a book on this site, I write so much, I rock at rambling. Well current events, basically I'm satisfied, but not really what you'd call "happy". I look for so much more, I long to explore places other than my house, vanessa's house, and the 20 minute walk in between. I guess getting a truck could change that. I hopefully will pass my permit test tomorrow and then I'll get my license within a few weeks [hopefully], I just had my birthday, it was fun, some people were so generous! I'm so grateful! And if it didn't seem so, I'm sorry, I truly was. So nice. I had a crazy trip with the legal salvia last week. That really was an eye-opening experience, I swear. That's the only way to describe it. My world split into a million pieces, and each piece had a face that slightly resembled Nicole, [I'm guessing because I spent the day with her] and I just couldn't get a grip on anything. I had no idea I was on the drug, I thought it was all real. I thought everything was alive, every inanimate object had life to it, and not just one, but thousands. It was indescribable, one of the most insane experiences of my life. But it definitely did not make me want to try other drugs, I realized that hallucinogenic drugs are like lies. Because what you see isn't real. Yeah, I guess it's kinda fun/crazy, but it's just like a movie or whatever. I wouldn't recommend it. School has been good, surprisingly, but I have the easiest schedule I absolutely love it. The only thing I hate is how hard next year is going to be in comparison to this year. Oh well, enjoy the easy life while I can, right? Right. I'm so excited for a bunch of things: NASCAR race at California, Brad Paisley, Tim McGraw, Keith Urban, Alaska for 2 weeks, 4th of July, BBQ in ceramics, driving, new laptop, HOPEFULLY a 2002 Silverado if I can convince my dad, graduating, yearbooks, just summer in general. Not looking forward to college, but I know God will direct me in the right path for me, so never any need to worry. It's very comforting having a faith as strong as mine. I know he does what's best for me, so why worry? And I don't have to fear death, because I know what's coming next, a better life. Although I haven't always made the best decisions in my life and struggled with sinful desires, I have continued to keep God at the center of my life, and if anyone wants to criticize me for my faith I'm ready to defend him. I keep going off on random subjects, I guess that's what happens when you bottle up your thoughts for an entire year. I'm excited for Big Hat Days, and 311 announcing their Summer Tour and I'll finally have my license so I can go and drive down there for the day and see them at night in San Diego or San Francisco. I think that would be so fun, it'd be tight if Jason, or Al could come too before they head off to college. Sad to think about, so I'm gonna cherish my friendships while they're still there. With that I'll sign off.
Memories are my most cherished belonging. Without them, what's the point of living?
-Andrew
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